I Feel Guilty

It may sound strange but I do feel guilty at times — I feel guilty for all the love, joy, friendship, care, health — all kind of abundance I have — when there is so much pain and suffering all around. God has always been so kind to me πŸ™

There is child abuse, spouse abuse, sickness, joblessness, all kinds of addictions, poverty and what not. There is no end to pain and suffering 😌 There is so very little that I can do and it hurts.

Decades ago my father had gifted me biography of Helen Keller. And her saying: I am one person and I can’t do everything; but just because I can’t do everything doesn’t mean I will refuse to do what I can…. has been my guiding light for decades now.

I have learned to do my best for anyone and everyone that I can, and then let go. And in my meditations (During all SRF and YSS meditation we pray for others and world peace) and I pray for others– family, friends and world at large. Can I or we do anything more?

As I keep writing often : For me God is Love and Service is the active expression of Love. And my religion is Kindness and Compassion. And I also know that in our world of duality Pleasure and Pain coexist. But still there are times when I feel a little guilty of all that I have and see so much lack all around.

If I was given a boon: what is it that I would want different in my life than what I had; I would say – NOTHING. If I could go back all the way and re-live my life, I would want nothing different.

I was blessed to have divinely loving parents, loving and caring siblings, a beautiful and loving wife, loving and caring children, scores of good friends and relations, reasonably good health, enough of material comforts, a divine guru in Paramahansa Yogananda….no, I wouldn’t want anything different.

The only thing I would pray to have more of is – Wisdom. I would have liked to be wiser so that I could have been more appreciative of my good fortune when I was younger.

Even these past few months of being at home all the time have been so blessed. I can read, write and meditate all the time. I have no responsibilities. I am tempted to take credit for the decision to quit the corporate rat race long back in 1998 and the decision to leave Mumbai and move to Pune to be with children in 2014; but even these thoughts and decisions were His grace πŸ™

I hope and pray, my friend, that God gives you an equal or more abundant life.

Peace unto all πŸ™

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  2. Only a grateful person can say that otherwise every other person we see or speak to has a lot to complain about life even though they are abundantly blessed by Almighty.

  3. I am one person and I can’t do everything; but just because I can’t do everything doesn’t mean I will refuse to do what I can.

    That there is the great take away. πŸ‘πŸ’―

  4. Hmm, we always feel guilty, whether we are too happy, too fulfilled, having to move on with life. But we have to, even if that means letting you of what we previously had.
    Enjoy life as it is and realize that the guilt is normal and as long as we understand it we can move further.
    Take care! πŸ™‚

  5. Thank you so much Kamal. Yes I know that you are filled with love and kindness. May your tribe increase πŸ’•πŸ™

  6. I think you should not feel guilty unless you have got what you have by doing wrong to someone. The positivity and gratefullness you show is surely a great thing. Always keep thatπŸ™‚

  7. You have always come across to me as someone who IS wise, and who is deserving of what he has. Try to take comfort in the fact that you do your best; that’s all any of us can do.

  8. Profound and inspiring share, Ashok. Yes God has been kind and unkind on many people but everyone is a part and parcel of their karmas and He that plays every part in our Karmas. Thanks for your awesome share and I too think on similar lines. My religion too is LOVE AND KINDNESS. Lovely photos.

  9. Although you have been truly blessed humble you remain, you give out so much of your blessing to others who cross your path. Your posts are full of love and kindness a good example to us all.

  10. Thank you so much my friend for taking our time to give this beautiful advice. Yes we can and we do make difference in so many lives in so many ways.

    Am so glad that you took such a positive attitude even in your bad times. Love and blessings

  11. Hmm… well I’ve had both good and bad… when experiencing my bad – I always thought … I am still very lucky no matter my bad… there is always someone out there who has it way worse.

    You are exactly where you are meant to be, no need to feel guilty for that. We all have our paths to go on.

    You are meant to be where you are – that is your path…

    You cross paths with people when you need them or they need you.

    Showing kindness and heart can have profound effects on someone … what you might think is nothing, might mean the world to someone else

    You can not save the world… and I too, wish to take away all the pain and suffering – that kills me also.

    But for every person you touch with your kindness sincerity and heart…

    And who knows? Maybe that one life you changed, does go on to help and change even more lives for the better.

    We have a fable about a Lion and a mouse … the moral of the story is Kindness is never wasted. ❀️

    http://www.read.gov/aesop/007.html

    Don’t be too hard on yourself because your life is good… enjoy that! Don’t waste that – cherish that!

    Obviously you have a heart, and with that alone you can make differences – you just don’t see the differences in the way you want to. But it does make a difference ✌️

  12. Thank you so much Sujata. Your comments are always so thoughtful and deep.
    I do believe Gratefulness is vital to an abundant life. Guruji’s teachings are perfect πŸ™

  13. As always there is a beautiful message in your posts – in this, it reminds me of a thought from the Spiritual Diary on Gratitude (dated 24 November) “that Thanksgiving and praise open in our consciousness the way for spiritual growth and supply to come to us. Spirit pushes Itself out into visible manifestation as soon as a channel is opened through which It can flow. We should be thankful for everything at all times ” Thanks for the gentle reminder especially during the present times πŸ™πŸ½

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