Sometimes….

Sometimes I don’t want the night to end…

I want to keep roaming in the starry night on the wings of the wind, astride grey and dark clouds!

Sometimes I want to step into the ocean and sink deep into its peace!

Sometimes I want Time to halt just awhile to let me catch up!!

Sometimes I want Time to pause and

Sometimes I want it to go back 4 decades and more!!

Sometimes I don’t want my dreams to end and

Sometimes I don’t want to come out of the stillness of my mind!!

Sometimes I wonder who is the one who is thinking, who am I!!

Sometimes I wonder whether I am living in acceptance and surrender or in denial?

Sometimes I wonder: if I myself am so lost how can I preach and how can I teach?

Sometimes I cry at the pain and the suffering all around, brought by the greed of a few powerful and the rich!!

Sometimes I want to walk away into the deep, dark night; away from all this……

And the day breaks

And I smile

And I think

God knows what He is doing!!

Surrender or denial

Does it really matter….

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All pics on my iPhone

Black lives matter

Black lives matter. And so do brown and yellow and yes, even white.

Every life matters – Of every cast, colour, culture and creed.

Muslim lives matter, Christian lives matter, and yes, even Hindu lives matter.

Lives of the poor matter as much as those of the rich.

Life of every animal, bird and insect matters.

EVERY LIFE MATTERS

But sadly there is discrimination all over the world and it has always been there. Only degree varies. And unfortunately we always find justification for our misdeeds.

The root cause of all this is: that have lost contact with our our own selves. We have lost sight of the inherent beauty of our souls. We have lost sight of our true nature. Going to the church, temple, synagogue or mosque every week is not the answer.

There is only one way out if we want to address this malady, and that is:

By raising our consciousness! To know that we are all ONE. Same consciousness connects us all and running through and sustaining us all.

We forget that when we hurt another, we are essentially hurting ourselves; for there is no separation!

We are all ONE CONSCIOUSNESS and we can raise it:

By becoming kinder,

By becoming more compassionate,

BY BECOMING LOVE

Fear to Faith – Part I; What do the Moon and the Stars say ♑️♒️♊️ in our Current World Lockdown Situation

(Pic of YSS Ranchi Ashram (taken on 10th April evening) which was established by Paramahansa Yogananda in 1917 in Ranchi, India)

One good thing with current lockdown situation is that the sky is so clear and beautiful 😊💕

I have been getting up rather early, and a little south of east, I can see Jupiter, Saturn and Mars in a beautiful arch; in and around the constellation of Capricorn. I love the sky and the stars. I am not an astrologer, but I do believe in astrology (did study it for a while in my younger days 😊) Unfortunately my iPhone is not able to capture this divinely beautiful and still dawn.

A few days back a niece of mine from Guatemala (Blanca, this post is for you🤗) asked me, if I know anything about moon and its effect on the current world situation. I started to put my thoughts together for her but then decided to share it with you all😊

MOON does effect our lives TREMENDOUSLY. And so do all the stars and planets and their movement.

High tides and low tides are caused by the moon. The moon’s gravitational pull generates something called the tidal force. The tidal force causes Earth—and its water—to bulge out on the side closest to the moon and the side farthest from the moon. These bulges of water are high tides.

Pic from internet

About 71% of the Earth’s surface is covered by water and 29% of Earth’s surface is land. And our bodies too are predominately water 😇

According to H.H. Mitchell, Journal of Biological Chemistry 158, the brain and heart are composed of 73% water, and the lungs are about 83% water. The skin contains 64% water, muscles and kidneys are 79%, and even the bones are watery: 31%.

And if moon can cause tides in mighty oceans, just imagine what it can and do to our bodies, which are predominantly WATER

I understand that planet Mars would move to Aquarius ♒️ from Capricorn on the 5th of May; and God willing this would bring some relief.

Difficult times/ Challenges all over the world had started with Lunar Eclipse on the 10th of January in Capricorn ♑️ and this phase would end on the 4-5th of June : the next Lunar Eclipse in Gemini ♊️

This is not the last of the year though; there is one more lunar eclipse on 29-30th November; Followed by a Total Solar Eclipse on the 14th of December. That I feel should be the end of this current difficult period.

I Pray, and I Hope, and I Believe that : The current virus situation would end on the 23rd of September, when Rahu leaves Mercury.

We shall all breathe a huge sigh of relief and would be grateful that God has heard our prayers. But would that mean the end of our problems? Doesn’t look like. Rahu enters Taurus ♉️ on the 23rd of September and next 18 months would be very challenging for Indian subcontinent.

At times like these our innate soul qualities of goodness and compassion and kindness come out. They always do: in all natural disasters! And now we are all in it together and our interconnectedness is more perceptible at this time.

But when we go back to our earlier normal world: Once again our competitive spirit would take over and our goodness and compassion would get pushed down (not for all and not the same intensity – as all of us are uniquely different!) So those would be, I would say, even tougher times in a very subtle way. And they will last till about end of next year.

Pic of sunrise on 1st April from our terrace. No filters used.

These were and are: difficult times, astrologically, and not only Corona! For most countries for most people : Financial, Health, Relationships – anything and everything.

Do read my blog post of 15th January : Living in Today’s World beset with Turmoil.

Paramahansa Yogananda, author of The Autobiography of a Yogi, has said that astrology is scientific but not easily understood. And that we have the power, we have the consciousness to transcend and mitigate the effect of the planetary movements.

We do not go through difficulties or good times because we were born at a particular time in a particular place; but we were born in that particular time and place because of our past karma ( had discussed it in a little more detail in my last year’s post : Life is a Cocktail) Whatever is happening in our lives: Good, bad or ugly; is our own creation – individual as well as mass karma, cause and effect.

Paramahansa Yogananda had also said that we are in a period of transition to a higher age; and he foresaw (decades back) that in the course of this transition, we would pass through some challenging times.

But he emphasized that those difficulties can be mitigated, and will ultimately be overcome, by the efforts of all who strive to think of God and to express His goodness in their lives.

Pic I took last year of Mother Center in LA of Self Realisation Fellowship establishes by Paramahansa Yogananda in 1920

God is Love; His plan for creation can be rooted only in love….Every saint who has penetrated to the core of Reality has testified that a divine universal plan exists and that it is beautiful and full of joy.

So let us go forward with courage and cooperate with that divine plan by using constructively the power of our thoughts and the will to help ourselves and others, and to Pray for all, because that is the Highest we can do.

In doing so we will not only hasten our own soul’s evolution but contribute toward the positive change that is gradually taking place all over the world.

God is Love and Love is all there is 💕🙏💕

Meditation/Faith/Pray: Cure for all human suffering – Any day any time.

Fear and Faith can’t co-exist. Let us deepen and strengthen our faith 🙏🙏

Let us be cautiously courageous!

But whatever you do or whatever your beliefs : Don’t take life so seriously! It is just a Reality Show!

Seriously – we know so little 😇 Keep it simple – Just be happy and spread happiness 😊

Statutory Warning: Laughing in Injurious to all Disease 😂 and it is Contagious 😂

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I am Praying

I am Praying

For that is the Highest I can do!

I am praying for the ones

Suffering from the virus,

And I am praying

For all scary souls

Thoroughly bewildered

And completely lost!

I am praying for

The Doctors and the Nurses,

And am praying for all

The Helping Hands;

Who are working tirelessly

In all the lands!

I am praying

For the Destitute,

The Homeless,

The daily Wage Earners

And for all,

Who are Marginalised!

I am praying More for

Ones suffering from

The greatest virus of all,

FEAR

Which has paralysed

Our Intellects and

Power of Thought!

And I am praying Utmost

For Leaders of the World,

Business and the State;

They need much more

Wisdom, Compassion and Strength

To work for the Highest Good of all!!

So let us PRAY

And strengthen our FAITH

For that is HIGHEST

We can do,

Every minute and

Every hour of the day!!!

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PS: I learned this great lesson from our Swami Shraddhanandaji, a very senior monk of Yogoda Satsanga Society of India and Self Realisation Fellowship founded by Paramahansa Yogananda more than a century ago.

We shouldn’t say: The only thing I can do is pray. It is the best, it is the highest we can do. And yes we can and should give any other help and assistance we can give.

I had the honour and the privilege to be with him for a few days, earlier this month, and I learned so much.

Please do check out the Home Study Lessons of Paramahansa Yogananda, at SRF and YSS websites. These cover everything we need to take care of our body, mind and soul, in all times, and specially at testing times like these.

Related posts:

https://ashokwahi.wordpress.com/2020/03/15/why-corona-why/

https://ashokwahi.wordpress.com/2020/03/12/virus-o-virus/

https://ashokwahi.wordpress.com/2020/01/15/living-in-todays-world-beset-with-turmoil/

She has begun to Heal

I Feel Guilty

It may sound strange but I do feel guilty at times — I feel guilty for all the love, joy, friendship, care, health — all kind of abundance I have — when there is so much pain and suffering all around. God has always been so kind to me 🙏

There is child abuse, spouse abuse, sickness, joblessness, all kinds of addictions, poverty and what not. There is no end to pain and suffering 😌 There is so very little that I can do and it hurts.

Decades ago my father had gifted me biography of Helen Keller. And her saying: I am one person and I can’t do everything; but just because I can’t do everything doesn’t mean I will refuse to do what I can…. has been my guiding light for decades now.

I have learned to do my best for anyone and everyone that I can, and then let go. And in my meditations (During all SRF and YSS meditation we pray for others and world peace) and I pray for others– family, friends and world at large. Can I or we do anything more?

As I keep writing often : For me God is Love and Service is the active expression of Love. And my religion is Kindness and Compassion. And I also know that in our world of duality Pleasure and Pain coexist. But still there are times when I feel a little guilty of all that I have and see so much lack all around.

If I was given a boon: what is it that I would want different in my life than what I had; I would say – NOTHING. If I could go back all the way and re-live my life, I would want nothing different.

I was blessed to have divinely loving parents, loving and caring siblings, a beautiful and loving wife, loving and caring children, scores of good friends and relations, reasonably good health, enough of material comforts, a divine guru in Paramahansa Yogananda….no, I wouldn’t want anything different.

The only thing I would pray to have more of is – Wisdom. I would have liked to be wiser so that I could have been more appreciative of my good fortune when I was younger.

Even these past few months of being at home all the time have been so blessed. I can read, write and meditate all the time. I have no responsibilities. I am tempted to take credit for the decision to quit the corporate rat race long back in 1998 and the decision to leave Mumbai and move to Pune to be with children in 2014; but even these thoughts and decisions were His grace 🙏

I hope and pray, my friend, that God gives you an equal or more abundant life.

Peace unto all 🙏

Life is: A Tug of War

He is the center

And He is the core

And He is in

Our hearts.

The more we are away

From Him

More is our suffering

And more is the pain

But even this suffering

And also the pain

Are His gifts only

To bring us

Back home

Life is a Tug of War

A 24/7 struggle is always going on in our lives! We are tossed around like a wave in the sea or a straw in the wind! And looks like there is no escape! 

All of us are subjected to this tossing around because two opposing forces are continuously at work in our lives — one is Centrifugal and the other Centripetal. One is throwing us out and the other is pulling us in!

One is Maya, the Delusion, Satan, or Worldly Attractions and Temptations: which are pulling us away from God, from Love, which is at the center, the core of our being! Maya is a tenacious foe because for lifetimes we have identified ourselves with the mortal body and mind. So long as we remain engrossed in their ceaseless reactivity to the drama of daily life, our energy and attention are kept hostage to outward circumstances – to the demanding pressures, the constant sensory stimulation, and the peace-disrupting information overload prevalent in this modern world. 

The other, His love and His magnetism are pulling us towards Him, towards the center. The further away we are from the center more is our suffering and restlessness. And the nearer we are to the center more is our joy and peace. All of us are His prodigal children and will eventually return to Him, to the center. 

Even if you aren’t a believer or are an agnostic; you might be aware of the Big Bang theory, which says – that the universe began approximately 14 billion years ago as an unimaginably small, hot, and dense point (The Singularity) and rapidly expanded. The expansion of the Universe occurred at a very fast rate of speed; which was referred as a huge explosion.

That Singularity can be called God, Spirit, Universal Consciousness, Brahma, Allah or any name we choose to give it! 

(When I say God the reader is welcome to think of it with any name comfortable to him!)

It is humanly impossible to imagine the Force and the Power of this Big Bang, and its Intelligence! It is this Force, this Power which created the manifest universe; and it is this unimaginable force that created and sustains the unimaginable Infinitude of Creation! At the same time if it didn’t have supreme intelligence the cosmos would have been extremely chaotic. But it is perfectly balanced, organized and harmonious! One can just look nature with awe, amazement and wonder!

So both these forces are working on us all the time. His love, our innate nature, is pulling us back to Him; and the worldly attractions, the Satan, is pulling us away from the center, away from God. 

The negative emotions, feelings and actions, which take us away from the center, are:

  • Anger
  • Greed 
  • Lust
  • Hate and
  • Envy

And the emotions, feelings and actions; that pull us towards the center are: 

  • Love
  • Joy
  • Compassion
  • Kindness and 
  • Selflessness

The closer we are to the center, more at peace we shall be; and further away we are from the center, more restless we shall be! 

This tug of war is constantly working in our lives! At times we are running towards the center and at times crawling. At times we are inching away from the center or running away. That is the cyclicity of life! That is His play! But the good thing is that His Love is all-powerful and shall always win in the end! In the mean time we keep enacting the karmic play in the Reality Show, in the Cocktail we call Life!

It is the cohesive power of God that keeps the earth together. It is the attraction and pull of His love that we exist. But for His grace we would have disintegrated long back!

Paramahansa Yogananda had said that if we could see God, His love and joy; all will run back to Him! But then the play, the show will lose meaning! Therefore He has veiled Himself with all the worldly attractions and sensuous pleasures. At the same time He has given us the intelligence and reason, and the power to tear away this veil and find our way back home!

God wants that we use our will power, initiative, and soul-inspired discrimination to banish from our consciousness the limiting thoughts, desires, and behaviors that eclipse our innate divinity and bliss.

Even a touch of that God-bliss can spiritualize us and enlarge our awareness of possibilities in whatever circumstances confront us. We can assess daily situations more even-mindedly, and be guided by calm reason and soul intuition rather than impulses of the ego and emotions. We are able to express more understanding and compassion to others, based not just on moral imperatives but on the deeper empathy one feels for one’s own.  

Bee and its Love!

There is a popular verse in ‘Sanskrit literature’, which relates a bee’s story. The bee was sitting on a lotus flower, drinking its nectar. As the sun began setting, the petals of the flower began shutting. But the bee was so attached to enjoying the object of its senses that it refused to fly off. It thought, “There is still time for the flower to close. Let me suck some more nectar while I can.” 

In the meantime, it became dark and the lotus flower closed, trapping the bee. It thought, “Never mind! Let me remain inside my beloved flower for tonight. Tomorrow morning when its petals open again, I will fly away.” 

“A bee has the power to cut through wood. But look at the attachment to the sense objects that the bee which can cut through wood is stuck inside the soft petals of the lotus.” In the meantime, an elephant came, broke the lotus from the stem, and swallowed it. The bee along with the lotus went into the stomach of the elephant. The bee was thinking, “My beloved lotus is going somewhere, and I am happily going along with it.” It died shortly thereafter.

In the same way, we humans too remain engrossed in the gratification of the senses, and do not pay heed to the messages of the saints and sages. We can see old age coming as a sure sign of death, but like the bee, we remain engrossed in enjoying worldly pleasures.

Material desires are like an itching eczema, and the more we indulge in them, the worse they become. How can we be truly happy in this state of material indulgence? 

A person who has not learnt to discipline the mind and senses can neither meditate upon God nor experience his divine bliss. Without the higher taste, it becomes impossible to renounce the lower taste, and such a person keeps hankering for material happiness, like the bee finds it impossible to renounce the nectar of the flower. 

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You may like to read my earlier posts :

Life is a Cocktail

Life is a Reality Show

 

you are RESPONSIBLE 💯

Oh yes it is you who are responsible for everything happening anywhere in the world. You are responsible for what president Trump said and did, you are responsible for the earthquake and the hurricanes and the floods, and the riots and the bombings … you are responsible for everything!! You are responsible for the job that you lost, you responsible for the lover who cheated you. You are responsible for your mother’s sickness and your father’s death. You are also responsible for the love and the beauty and the joy everywhere in the world. You are responsible for the sunrise and the sunset, for the clouds and the breeze….

Your life, my dear is your RESPONSIBILITY!! 💯 percent. And unless and until you learn and practice this – your pain and suffering isn’t going to go. You aren’t going to lead a fulfilling life –However good it may look to the outside world and however much you may fool yourself.

But before we talk more about Responsibility we need to understand ACCEPTANCE

Today is a given. Fighting today is insanity. Whatever your are today : your health, wealth, relationships, looks….. IS – what it is. Accept it. It could have been different – yes. But it is not and that is a fact. It is futile to waste your time and energy blaming anyone, including yourself.

Any problem you have with life : Look at it and Acknowledge it…. whatever is happening in your life today Accept it. Be aware of it…

And then take RESPONSIBILITY– 💯 percent. Responsibility is Your Ability to Respond. What do you do!! The point my dear is that you have no control over most of the things that happen to you and around you. More than 90% things that happen to you aren’t in your control. But the quality of your life today and your future depends on – How you Respond to those external stimuli. Normally we REACT with a conditioned mind; with our past perspective and impressions. What we need to do is RESPOND!! And that can happen only and only if you stop yourself from reacting. Even if you give the smallest of pauses before you react, you will be able to respond. President Trump said it : how do you respond. PM Modi or May or Justine did this or that : how do you respond. An earthquake in Nepal : how do you respond ……

The moment you start doing it your life will start to bloom. All the energy that would have been lost in the blame game, being a victim; will be channelled to the solution of the challenges you are facing. You will be at peace with yourself and the world.

As I wrote in my post Time heals nothing …. Past and Future are mind constructs. Never real. And living in them we make our present, which is real, miserable. By learning to Respond and not React you will start to live more in the Now. And that is Amazingly freeing.

You have an amazing life ahead for you.

Accept

Respond

Let go

Live in the Now

Shine your light

Just be…

I love you and am so proud of you ❤️🤗

Time heals nothing ….

It doesn’t….Time heals nothing…..It just teaches us how to deal with our pain.

Today would have been our 44th wedding anniversary…. that wasn’t to be. But I am thankful to God for the 36 years we were together. Whichever dimension Anita is in now, I am sure she is spreading her love and happiness. And that she is proud of me that I am doing the same. She taught me well.

Anita was not only beautiful and loving she was very talented. In fact she is the most talented person I ever met. She was a master in music (instrumental), she sang, she painted, she wrote, she had green fingers, she knew pottery and she was an actor…. plus plus …Whatever she started she became good at it. I am sure if she had started to blog she would have been very popular. Any body who met her even once didn’t forget her.

She used to teach painting and music in Delhi and used to have her own classes. We moved to Pune in 1993 for my job and she had to stop those classes. In Pune she learned pottery. And then my job took me to Mumbai and she started to act. She made more than 80 commercials and about 30 serials on TV in 6-7 years. And then she started to act in movies. Did 6-7 and then she fell sick. She was ready to leave all her work and look after my parents at Chandigarh, in North India. But that wasn’t to be. Who knows they are together in some other dimension now. And I remember them with all my love. Am blessed that I had parents like mine and a wife like Anita. And God willing we shall be together again at some other time, in some other dimension…

She had said to me once : Ashok when we grow old we aren’t going to fight, we are going to live like good friends and grow old gracefully 😊🤗 Who knows what would have our fate been if she was still around. So very often I think that the love that I feel in my heart for all, is her gift to me. She, like my mom, was just love.

Mother in Laws 😎

We have no clue about birth and death. From where do we come and where do we go. Why do we come and why do we go? Who knows !! But I do believe life is much bigger and more complex than we see on our small piece of rock.

But we are here. And let us do our best to make our lives worthy. Let us be happy and grateful. Let us be giving and caring. Let us be kind.

…..pain is a given … in this world of duality. No one can escape it. But we can help each other to lessen the pain…to make it bearable.

Pain is a given, yes. But suffering is our own creation. Many of us make our pains our suffering by the quality of the thoughts we bring to our pain.

I think being on the spiritual path helped us both. Otherwise the 5-6 years of the pain she went through and the 8 years since she passed on, would have been much more difficult to go through. Being spiritual, being godly doesn’t mean that we will be spared our pain; but it does help us to rise above the pain and the suffering. We start to look at life from a different perspective. We start to know the ephemeral nature of life and start to live more deeply. We become more mindful.

And slowly we start to understand Time. We start to live in the Now. This moment, the Now….the only reality. Past and future are mere mind constructs. Both aren’t real.

All our regrets come from living in the past and all our worries come from thinking about the future. Both aren’t real. But they make our present, the only reality, miserable.

Those weren’t easy years. Specially the last – 2011 (her disease was diagnosed in 2006) A bit of me died every day. Every day I left for work and kissed her bye …I knew one day it would be the last. And when I returned home in the evening it was even tougher. I didn’t know how she would be feeling and looking and didn’t want my face to betray my emotions and reactions. So I would brace myself before opening the door; bring a smile on my face and pray and then step in…

I can think of hundreds of things I could have done better for her and with her. But making myself miserable and unhappy thinking about the past and what could have been, neither helps me nor her. It would just make me miserable and I will make everyone around me the same.

But with His grace

I chose life

I chose love

I chose happiness

I chose giving

I chose caring

Thank God, my friend,

You are alive,

You can read and write;

Walk and talk.

Get up and get going.

Spread your cheer.

Let you light shine.

Tell people you love them.

Go and hug them.

This day is yours,

Live it.

Death is very real and

Life so fragile ….

…….TIME CONSUMES ALL

1984 at friends son’s birthday party
MGM Grand, Reno 1983 our first trip abroad
My favourite – on my parents 50th wedding anniversary in 1987. She was 31 and remained 31 for the next 25 years😍
Ooty 2006
Cape Town – she had gone for a commercial shoot.

Doing her last painting Munnar 2006
From a TV serial

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